Got my Premium Membership back!! W00t!!1

It's so nice to have money again. I've been living off my credit card for the past week and before that every bit of money I had went to either Kingston or bills. It's funny that now I have money again the bills are staking up, but this entire time away I've been completely slacking. Missed sooooo many days of drawing (not all in a row but there were quite a lot).

Anyway I've found myself completely and utterly addicted and in love with Angry Joe. Been watching his videos non stop for 3 days straight while trying to avoid getting back into gaming, but they guy is so unbelievably optimistic he makes me want to get into games, and I'm starting to wish for my own Xbox 360 too which is really scaring the crap out of me. I already have a PS3 gaining dust and I still have a lot of PS2 games I own that I haven't played yet. I'm a terrible gamer, but I believe that's mostly because I play alone.

I'm starting to realize that I'm one of those people who needs other people around to get stuff done. I need people watching me to make sure I actually keep up my efforts with the 366 Days of Drawing thing and I need people with drives and encouraging who don't want to 'just play' around me so I can get shit done. As long as there's someone pushing, depending on, or supporting me I can move to my fullest. That's probably why I've been slacking lately because I haven't uploaded in forever. Don't worry though I have plans for that.

I'm probably going to upload in breaks because nearly a month has passed since my last one, and now that I have the shoutbox again I can get back into my habits for 366.

I'm also realizing how much I hate digital for drawing and coloring even... God I need to figure out my own path with digital coloring otherwise every piece I've been working on digitally will take months to finish.

Part of me simply wants to go back to how I did things in Fakiru Week. I've been questioning self-isolation for years now. Not hanging out with friends, ignoring family, dropping everyone on MSN just to get shit done, and if this year fails me I just may do that. As much as I know I need people to keep me motivated I'm finding that every last one of the ones I'm directly involved with nearly every day is really keeping me from things that need to be done and serving more as a distraction than helpful. It sucks so much that I need people, yet I can't seem to find the ones helpful to me... Fuck I need to just go back to school.